I DID IT!!!!!

I cant't believe it I finally did it !!!!!!!!!!

This has got to be the first time I can remember that I have gone 7 days with out stopping for at least a $1 cheeseburger. This was not easy for me. Not at all. Even as I sit hear typing I am thinking about how nice it would be to run and grab a cheeseburger.

This week was my first week of Drama Camp and I wanted so badly every day as I drove to teach to stop and grab SOMETHING. A couple of french fries PLEASE!!! Even harder was driving home from camp by that point I was so hungry there were times I was pretty sure my truck was about to pull a Herbie forcing me into a drive threw wither I liked it or not.

By the time I got home I was starving. But I still had to make dinner and I really just wanted to eat.

I have tried this before not telling anybody but my self  that I was going to do it and I never went more then 2 days. But this time I did it. I suffered threw it and believe me I white knuckled it all the way. But I did it and I survived.

So on to my next goal. I think since my work out is going so well and although I wouldn't say it easy for me it might be time to step it up a bit. I am going to add kettle bell weights. So for those of you who read this and I hope there are at least a couple could you please let me know what a good beginners kettle bell routine is. Are we talking 2 reps of 10,10 reps of 4 or sit there and stair at it and hope it does the work for me. What do you think?

Better Late Than Never

Well I didn't post last week. The truth behind that is because my husband took the laptop to work and I don't like my desktop very much. But here comes my neediness again. NO ONE NOTICED!!!!! Just like the two Darrens from Bewitched. 

Now is the time when I vent cry and wine. Last week I was having some trouble with my allergies. Now I say allergies even though I have never had a Dr say I was allergic to this that or the other. But my ability  to breath changes with the seasons so I think its safe to say I have seasonal allergies.

 

I was having some pretty severe coughing fits, some were so bad that I literally blacked out during one. After suffering in anything but silence I went to the Dr. She was very concerned about my breathing especially because it hasn't really been that long since I had been there for a similar issue. She decided to load me up with allergy medication and steroids. Which is great because I have always wanted to look like a man. 

But on the upside it should make lifting the furniture to do housework much easier.

Now here is what threw me for a loop. They gave me a breathing test and it was conclusive that I have a low lung capacity. SERIOUSLY..... ME. The human mega phone. If I can get this kind of volume with a low lung  capacity just think what I could do with a FULL use of my lungs.   

On the other hand due to my breathing issues I have received my first inhaler. As if I wasn't nerdy enough.

And so on to the great sleep apnea conspiracy. Friday I had my appointment with the only oral surgeon my insurance would cover that took me 3 weeks  to get.  I show up to the office and where I am greeted by an empty waiting room and a friendly faced receptionist. "I am so sorry Ma'am but the Dr has been in a car accident and he is in the hospital about to go in to surgery. I am afraid we will have to reschedule your appointment."  As I struggle to hold back tears I ask "When will I be able to reschedule?" "Well we really don't know so we are starting with 3 weeks out, but we can't guarantee it won't be longer". So I lost it.

 

Which is a bit of an understatement. I cried so hard the receptionist came out from behind her glass to hug and console me.  I told her I understood that it wasn't anybodies fault it is just a bad situation. But I can't help but wonder if the first night I get a good night sleep the stock market will crash, the world will be hit by a meteor or a monkey carrying a pandemic size virus will escape from a government lab.

So I must be stopped at all costs.

So some of you have heard a little bit of the trouble we have had with the plumbing at home. I don't really want to get in to it but long story short the toilet is not where it should be and we currently do not have a working shower in the house. Needless to say this has caused a great deal of stress. All this stress in combination with working out and not eating late somehow has translating in to GAINING 8 POUNDS. How the HELL did that happen. So of course being the completely rational logical person I am, decided to drown my sorrows in a double cheese burger, fried zucchini, large dr. pepper and salted caramel ice cream waffle cone.  I convinced my self that this was never going to work and I am just not one of the lucky healthy people of this world. This was just me giving up. So I took the day to cry. The next day I put on my big girl panties and got back on the elliptical. 

Which brings me to my goal this week. This is meant to be done in baby steps but my next goal is not a baby step, at least not to me. So I guess its honesty time. I eat way to much fast food. It needs to stop. I am pretty sure it was a habit I started while on tour it was cheaper to go to a drive-threw than a sit down restaurant. I think I developed a bit of an  addiction to it. No I do not believe that I need re-hab or that I am in the same position as a crack addict. But I do believe that the brain reacts to certain foods and effects the pleasure centers. The more you give in to it the harder it is to stop giving in to it. So its gotta be done.

No more for me. This one is gonna suck.

Disaster Will Robinson!!!!!

WELL THAT SUCKED!!!!!! I woke up every day with the greatest intentions of working out. Yet everyday something got in my way. Mostly myself. I only worked out twice this week. I was exhausted everyday this week. I know that it is not a good excuse but it is the one I am going with.

My sleep Apnea is becoming debilitating. I can barely get through the day with out taking a 2 hour nap in the middle  On top of that my insurance is refusing to cover the oral surgeon I was referred to. My ENT sent me to this oral surgeon and my appointment was supposed to be today. But they are not covered by my insurance. SO I called my insurance to see if they could help me find someone that was covered. They said there was no Dr with in 100 miles of me that works with sleep apnea. So I would have to apply for "out of network pre-certification". "OK so lets do that". Several days later I get a call telling me I am being denied pre-certification because there was an in network  Dr. in Plano.  WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME THAT A WEEK AGO!!!!! Fine I am not picky just give me a Dr. So I make another appointment with the new Dr. "Of course we can fit you in, IN 3 WEEKS"

AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH COME ON!!!!

So of course I have my regular 3 month appointment with my Endocrinologist and find out my thyroid levels are low again so they have to change my medication again. My calcium is dangerously low and my blood pressure is dangerously high.  I asked what I can do about this because I am doing everything I have been told by my Dr's. She says very sympathetically "get a good night sleep"

I WANT MY MOMMY!!!!!!

So my goal for this week is to try again. 30 min of aerobic exercises a day. 

 I am afraid I am going to have to add some caffeine to my morning even though my Dr wants me off caffeine. But I just don't see any other way.

So for those of you who are tempted to make a comment on how I just wasn't trying hard enough and I am just lazy. I will find you and I will give you a black eye